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Monday, May 25, 2015

What it's like to be a young person in Nova Scotia

Figure from the Ivany Report (2014)
If you are in Nova Scotia right now (or even elsewhere in the Maritimes/Canada), you know that we are in pretty hard times here. The statistics are grim when it comes to unemployment, cuts to rural services, and youth out-migration, but statistics don't tell a story. I can tell you a story. I am not complaining or griping. I don't think the world owes me a living. But I am not sure people outside of the Maritimes, or even older people in the Maritimes, quite understand what it's like to be a young person here. So, take a walk in my shoes...

Imagine you grow up in a mid-sized town in Nova Scotia. Your parents are not well-off, but you always had enough. Your family vacations always consisted of camping and cottaging trips around Nova Scotia, New Brunswick, and Prince Edward Island, and you grew up with a strong sense of place and belonging.

There is no doubt that this is where you belong: where you know the spot to forage for fiddleheads in the spring, and where every family gathering inevitably ends up with someone playing the piano, someone playing the fiddle, and everyone tapping their feet. There is hodgepodge at the harvest and church suppers with strawberry shortcake in the summer. It was where you know every pothole in the road, where the beach is never more than an hour away, and where wooden houses in every shade of paint line the streets.

And everyone in your high school can't wait to get out of your town. But most people, after high school, don't go far. There are the few adventurous ones who go to Ontario, Alberta, the States, overseas, but most stay close to home: the agriculture college, Mt A, St FX, Dal, SMU, MSVU, NSCC, Acadia... we are fortunate to have so many of the country's best colleges and universities within a couple of hours of our town.

And you go to one of these places, and you excel, just as you did in high school. Since you were young, everyone told you that you were smart, important, that you were going somewhere with your life. And you got on the dean's list, were involved in campus leadership opportunities, got jobs in the summer, and enjoyed your university experience.

Then university is over. You have an honours degree and a few thousand dollars in student loans, and you feel like you can do anything in the world. You are a Christian, and you feel God may be calling you to be a missionary, so you try it out, and right after you graduate you move to Mozambique for three months, living cross-culturally and doing linguistics research for a Christian organization.

But even when you are halfway across the world, you ache for your Nova Scotian home, and you wonder if you were ever meant to leave. So you come back, you live in your little university town that has become your home and you look for a job. You apply for perhaps fifty jobs before landing a job as a server. It's an OK job, but it's not the kind of job you thought you would have when you graduated and thought you could do anything in the world. You feel like you have so many more skills and talents to offer.

After working as a server for a while, you realize that you are not being a very good steward of the education and skills that God has given you. So you begin to explore other options, and eventually decide to go to grad school. But of course grad school is in Ontario.

So you spend a year away from Nova Scotia and the whole time, you miss it dearly. You wonder if you are having trouble letting go. You keep in touch with your friends from high school and university. There is your university housemate from Saskatchewan who wishes she could stay in Nova Scotia, but returns to Regina to get a job. There is your friend from high school who has a bachelor's degree and works as a cashier. There is your classmate from university who moves to Halifax to get a job but after months of searching, still has no stable employment. There are your many friends who have relocated to Alberta to work in towns like Fort McMurray, Grande Prairie, Edmonton, Calgary. There are your friends who have a degree in teaching and who have just been substituting for years. There is your friend from New Brunswick who works in Ottawa, and longs to move home to the Maritimes, but knows she will not find employment in her field here. There are your friends who work in the arts and move to cities like Vancouver and Toronto, where there are many more opportunities.

The narrative is always the same: you wish you could stay in Nova Scotia. But there are just no jobs.

You return home, triumphantly, half a master's degree under your belt, and ready to do research on Nova Scotia's rural areas. But you also need a job, and you search. And the search is discouraging and you wish there were jobs in somewhere other than Halifax, but the majority of jobs in your field are in the HRM. And you wish you had gone into something sensible, like engineering, nursing, or the trades. But when you were young you thought you could do what you love and get paid for it too, and so you studied economics, theology, and languages. You do not doubt that you are bright, talented, creative, and hardworking. But you start to feel like these things are not valued in your beloved home province.

It is hard not feel bitter when you see, for example, a local organic milk company start, struggle, and then eventually fail, in part because of regulations that are heavily influenced by the two other competing milk companies in the province, both owned by out-of-province entities. It is hard not to feel bitter when you see the province turn a blind eye to dangerous levels of emissions from a large pulp factory, just because, apparently, this factory (unsurprisingly, owned by an out-of-province entity) "creates jobs," and threatens to leave. Meanwhile, the forests of our province, softwood and beautiful hardwood alike, are getting literally ground to a pulp, and the woodlot owners get a pittance of what the wood is really worth. It is hard not to feel bitter when the government cuts assistance to students and to workers in the film industry, yet offers twenty-two million dollars to RBC-- again, an out-of-province company. Did I mention the CEO of RBC makes about 7.5 million a year?

The statistics show that Nova Scotia needs young people. Workers, on the whole, are growing older and retiring earlier, and the people to fill those jobs are moving "Out West," where they can actually make a decent living. We need our young people to stay, but we act as if we just do not value them. Each year, we get thousands of keen, bright young graduates out of our many post-secondary institutions. And they toss their graduation caps in the air and drink one last round of Keith's and then they board a plane for Anywhere But Here, and their highly-skilled labour, as well as their consumption, is enjoyed by places other than Nova Scotia. And you drive in the countryside and you pass countless abandoned homes and businesses with "for sale"signs in the window, and you feel helpless, like you are a passenger on a sinking ship. But you love this ship. And with your bailing bucket you try to fight the ocean.
Figure from the Ivany Report (2014)

Thursday, April 9, 2015

The Adventures of Charlie the Frog

I recently completed a solo trip out East from Waterloo to Truro: over 2000 km of driving in my new [to me] car. I do not know when I will be returning to Waterloo, so of course it was difficult to part with the lovely people who I have gotten to know over the past eight months.

I was really blessed by all the lovely notes and gifts people gave me when I was leaving. Thanks everyone!!

One of these gifts was a stuffed frog that my housemates gave me. I named this frog Charlie. This blog post chronicles Charlie's cross-country adventures.


This is what Waterloo looked like before I left... Spring is finally coming! This is the lawn in front of our place.

This is where Charlie was sitting when we began the journey. Unfortunately he had to move later when a cop near Toronto pulled me over for 
a)Having no plates (I did have a special permit, but the officer just did not see it and
b)Looking as if I was kidnapping a child in the front seat (?). Apparently having a pillow and a green frog in the passengers seat is a big no-no in Ontario and is very suspicious.


Charlie made some new friends! I got to stop in and see my sister in-law's family (I will have a sister-in-law next month!). They were so hospitable and I got to enjoy Easter lunch with them.


Charlie then got to visit our nation's capital, and was excited to visit a bakery that is famous for once having served Barack Obama. Even though he is a frog, Charlie has a big sweet tooth. Throughout our adventure, Charlie and I survived mainly on Clif Bars, apples, and Easter chocolate.
This is another new friend to Charlie and old friend to me! We enjoyed the classic Ottawa treat, Beavertails. Thanks Gabby for being an top-notch tour guide.


It was cold in Ottawa, so Charlie warmed himself by the eternal flame.

Charlie does not agree with all of the policies of the current government, but he was happy to visit some of the classic government sites.


Charlie is very thankful for the woman's suffrage movement in Canada and wholeheartedly agrees that women are persons.

Here is another new friend of Charlie. Tucker is SO much bigger than when I first met him (but still just as playful). This is what what Charlie and I woke up to on Monday morning.

Charlie and I became PRO at doing this by the end of the trip.

When we arrived in St. Stephen, we were really stiff from 11 hours of driving in one day. So Charlie and I did some yoga. This move is known as the downward frog.

Happy spring from Charlie at SSU!

Charlie and I took a little side drive with Mary to St. Andrews-by-the-Sea. When Mary and I were little (I think I was around eight or nine), we had visited St. Andrews and had played in this really fun playground. It was our mission to go back there. We did return, and it was just as awesome as we remembered! Charlie agreed. However we went there on a school day and the bell rang for recess, so we had to run away before we got arrested for suspiciously lurking around a school with a camera....


After thousands of miles of driving and months of being in Ontario, the smell of salt air was exactly what Charlie and I needed to smell.

Almost home!

Home again, home again, jiggety jig...
Compare this photo with the one of my front door in Waterloo. The snow drifts here are so high. Our poor little apple trees in our front yard are mostly buried. I knew Nova Scotia had  a lot of snow this winter, but it feels surreal to be coming home for spring term only to find a brand new winter.

Oh, and there's a funny story about me coming home, too. As soon as I went in my house, my car's alarm started going off! Our house is in a really quiet neighbourhood, so I felt super embarrassed! I could NOT for the life of me figure out how to turn it off. So as I was unpacking the car, it just kept on beeping. I read the manual and even when I did what it said I needed to do to turn off the alarm, it just would not go off. I called my Dad but he did not know what to do either. I started feeling a sense of dread: I just bought the car and I was worried that I would have a lifetime of electrical problems. But then, once I was all unpacked, I went to get my phone charger out of one of my bags. At the bottom of the bag, I saw a red light on. I realized what it was: the other set of keys to my car! When I had set down the bag, it had landed in such a way that my laptop was pressing down on the panic button. I felt really dumb but also really relieved. Well, now everyone on my street knows I am home.

Charlie then got to visit our province's capital, Halifax.
 Finally, Charlie moved into his new home with my mom. We were happy to find Mom very well. Over the past few days she has gone from being extremely sick (ie low white blood cell counts, fever, was in an isolated unit in the hospital) to making leaps and bounds in her recovery. We are thankful for everyone's prayers, and we give all credit to Jesus, who heals and restores.


Monday, March 9, 2015

News from the 'Loo

Hi friends!
I noticed it has been a pretty long time since I have written a blog post, so I thought I would share some of the things that are going on in my life lately, and what I have been learning through them.

1. Waterloo is Wonderful.
This is the timeline of me moving to a new place: first, I feel homesick and miss whatever context I just came from. Then, I start to notice the uniqueness and beauty of the place where I am. Finally, I am content. Waterloo has wooed me, and I am content. I am still SUPER excited to be going home this summer (!!) but there are things in this town that I have not been able to find anywhere else, things that give it character.
I love the way the sun shines on the snowy sidewalks, I love that there is all-you-can-eat sushi, and that we are so close to Mennonite country that there is a paddock in the parking lot at Sobey's. I love shawarma. I love that there was an African festival in Kitchener, and I love the folks I meet every single week as I help give them an emergency food supply. It is not like any of the cities or towns I have lived in before, and that's ok and that's wonderful. Kitchener-Waterloo is such a special place!
Parking lot at Sobey's
WE LOVE SUSHI
At the African festival, where we learned a traditional coming-of-age dance
Our first time trying shawarma!

2. Living generously.
This past week, my Mom was losing a lot of her hair from chemo treatments and such and so she shaved it altogether. This reminded me that the reason I was growing my hair so long was because I wanted to donate it to Pantene Beautiful Lengths. So I made an appointment at the hairstylist to chop off approximately ten inches of my hair, in solidarity with my Mom and to support other cancer patients.

Honestly, I suspected God was going to teach me something from this experience. I expected He would teach me something about letting go or maybe that physical beauty is not as important as inner character. But those lessons are not what I learned from my drastic cut. Actually, I learned something really valuable about living a generous life.

 The truth is, I was not worried about cutting off all that hair. Why? Because hair grows back. The same is true for giving blood. We are free about giving blood because we know our body naturally reproduces it. God alerted me to the fact that I was not afraid of giving things like hair or blood because I know from experience that it comes back. I can trust my head to continue to grow hair, and I can trust my heart to continue to pump blood. I felt like God was telling me that this is how I should think of everything I give. Whether it is money, time, or another resource that I think is finite, it is OK to give it away. It's like hair, God is saying: "even when you give it away, I provide growth." I am not saying that if you give away money, God will reward you with more. What I am saying is that you should not be afraid of sacrificing a lot of time or money because of fears of not having enough. God will always provide! This just changed my thinking on living generously: to live a truly generous life, you need to trust God that he will continue to provide. 
From this...
...To this

3. Books that have influenced me lately
Books have always been a joy in my life, and one of the best things about being in graduate school is that I get to read a ton of books. To be honest, some of the books I am reading are novels that I am just reading for fun. I am including some excerpts from books that have had an influence on me. I would highly recommend each of these books!

Gilead by Marilynne Robinson. It is very rare that one can find a book written from the Christian worldview that is actually well-crafted. This tender novel is one such book and is a new favourite I think!
Here's a quote:
"And why do I worry so much over this Jack Boughton? Love is holy because it is like grace-- the worthiness of the object is never really what matters."


Jayber Crow by Wendell Berry. This was another for-fun read, but in fact it affected me a lot. Friends, just do yourself a favour and read some Wendell Berry. He has written a lot of essays but honestly, a good story, like the one in Jayber Crow, does much more to change my mind than just an essay. Here's something from the book:
"You have been given questions to which you cannot be given answers. You will have to live them out - perhaps a little at a time.'
'And how long is that going to take?'
'I don't know. As long as you live, perhaps.'
'That could be a long time.'
'I will tell you a further mystery,' he said. 'It may take longer"

Plato's Revenge: Politics in the Age of Ecology by William Ophuls. This I actually had to read for a class. I don't agree with everything the author says but the general idea that humans need to more humble (because otherwise we will destroy our planet!) is right on. And it is so refreshing to come across an author who challenges the liberal modern capitalist viewpoint.
Here's some ideas from the book:
"Neither ideology nor self-indulgence can satisfy the spiritual needs of human beings or make them truly happy, and both tend toward destruction. "

The Bible. Always. 



What has God been teaching you, friends? Good news for you East Coasters, I will be traveling home soon. And if you live anywhere in between Waterloo and Nova Scotia, I would love to visit you on the way!


Friday, January 16, 2015

Jesus to the Nations

When I woke up today, I just assumed it would be a pretty normal day. There was no way I could have predicted the events that occurred. I woke up late, did my methodical morning stuff like make coffee and read the Bible and some other cool books, and attempted to do some school work. I then became distracted, and decided to go to campus to see Clubs and Societies Day. Probably if you go to university your school has something similar. All the clubs had displays in the student centre and they were trying to recruit everyone. I had an interesting time perusing all these booths and I was pressured into joining the Ski and Snowboard Club, but they have free t-shirts so it probably was a good decision after all, despite the fact that I am about 100 percent sure I will not be making it to the slopes this winter. As I browsed these booths I became hungry, which made sense because it was lunchtime. As fate would have it, I was in the student centre, so I had a number of options to choose from, including Subway, which was my eventual choice.

Little did I know that when I sat down to eat that delicious chicken sub, my life would change forever. For as I took off my jacket I felt something catch on the inside of the jacket. When I laid the jacket over the back of the chair, a white object dropped from the sleeve. I could not believe it. It was my Jesus to the Nations bracelet. It had snapped.

That rubber wristband is from the 2012 conference, or perhaps the 2011 one. To be honest, I cannot quite remember. In fact, I have been wearing it pretty much constantly since I received it. And today it fell off. My wrist feels naked.

OK, so I am over-dramatizing this. But honestly, for nearly three years I have left it on because a) I want to remember all the things I have learned at the Jesus to the Nations conference over the years and b) I want to be reminded every day of my true mission in life- to bring Jesus to the nations.

For those of you who do not know, Jesus to the Nations is a conference that happens every year in Halifax. It is a conference about Christian missions and it is completely free. There are speakers, workshops, and missions displays. And I have been there every year for perhaps the last 15 years. I have heard inspiring leaders like Jackie Pullinger, Lorne Cunningham, Brother Andrew, Libby Little, George Verwer and KP Yohannan. I have been challenged to serve God and to surrender my life to Him. My heart has broken for the millions who don't know Jesus' name, or who live in poverty, or who don't have the Bible in their language. I have received practical advice on how to live out my faith.

Every year, I love to go to Jesus to the Nations because it is a reminder of how global God's Kingdom really is. It is just human nature to be so caught up in our own lives and what is going on here. I spend way more time praying for stuff like for me to get good marks than for stuff like for God to help child sex slaves in Cambodia or for people in Cameroon to be able to read the Bible in their own language. So it is extremely helpful to go to an event like Jesus to the Nations and open my mind and spirit to remember how BIG God's Kingdom is. He is not only at work in Truro or Wolfville or Waterloo, he is also at work in the city in Ecuador or a little village in India. Hearing God-stories from all over the world is also such a faith-builder. It reminds us of God's incredible power. The God we serve is so mighty.

So when I looked at my Jesus to the Nations wristband, those were the things I remembered. It is a reminder to my commitment to God, to serve Him wherever I go. I have worn that wristband to Africa and back (twice), and all over North America, and it is exciting to think of where God will take me next.

Meanwhile, I am on track to finish my Master's program which will presumably be the start of a decent career here in Canada. I am not sure if I will stay in Canada long-term-- I think I am not quite done with overseas missions. But for now, God is calling me here. And what I have learned, and am still learning, is that missions is not just where you go. Missions is a lifestyle.

Missions is a lifestyle, no matter where you live.
Missions is being generous with time and money.
Missions is praying for God to glorify Himself in the world (and especially through you)
Missions is treating each person like they are God's precious child (even if they are a homeless person and make you kind of uncomfortable, or that annoying guy in your building).
Missions is being perceptive to what the Holy Spirit is doing around you.
Missions is taking risks to bring people into God's Kingdom.

OK, now that my wristband is gone, I am going to need you guys to remind me every day of this. But seriously. I have been so convicted of this lately- this idea that I need to be using the gifts God's given me here, for his Kingdom. The idea that in every single one of my relationships here is a missions field, whether it is with professors, students, housemates or friends. Maybe someday God will call me to some frontier. But for now, this is my frontier, wind chill and all.

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

My year in Bible verses

As another calendar year has just come to a close, the time comes to reflect on the past year. I would like to do this using Bible passages that have been meaningful to me throughout the year.
Habakkuk 3:14, NRSV
Though the fig tree does not blossom,
and no fruit is on the vines;
though the produce of the olive fails,
and the fields yield no food;
though the flock is cut off from the fold,
and there is no herd in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD;
I will exult in the God of my salvation.

I read this at the beginning of the year and it has been a comfort throughout 2014. I had always known that God's goodness is not dependent on circumstances, but this year I was able to experience that fully. God has been good during a less-than-perfect job, unexpected illness, untimely death, and the struggle of transitions. And though it may not seem like there is much to rejoice, I can exult in the God of my salvation.
Township of Woolwich, Ontario

2 Peter 3:9, NIV
The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.

This verse is about God's promise that he will return. For me this year, it was a reminder to be patient. To speak with candor, at this point in my life I feel like I am in an awkward in-between phase between being a carefree undergraduate and being a bona fide adult with a career and a marriage and kids. But God is teaching me to be patient, and to embrace this transitional time in life. He is not slow in keeping ANY of his promises.
University of Waterloo
The first half of the book of Mark

I spent a week studying this with a group of students.
Here are some of my thoughts from that week:
There is something coming up in our study of Mark-- this pattern of God allowing people to get into these desperate situations, and then showing his glory. Like Jesus asleep in the stern during a storm. Like allowing Jairus' daughter to die and for the parents to go through that anguish before raising her. Why? Is it because God wants us to experience the desperation we would feel is we were not dependent upon him? I guess I mean, in order to experience what we no longer have to face? Would we be less thankful if we were less desperate to begin with? 

I am still struggling with this one.
Desperate people at MarkEast 2014


Isaiah 43:19, NIV
 See, I am doing a new thing!
    Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
    and streams in the wasteland.


Somebody read this verse during my trip to Cameroon in March. That trip was a huge paradigm-shifter for me, as this verse indicates. God is doing a new thing in the Bible translation movement, and I learned about it during my time in Cameroon. Bible translation no longer needs to be done by white, Western missionaries-- the chief purpose of these missionaries should be empowering nationals to do this work themselves. And in places like Cameroon, people in in the many language groups of the country are engaging in Bible translation and literacy, and God is doing amazing things. He is doing a new thing. This year, I learned to watch out for new things God is doing.
God speaks Aghem (language of Northern Cameroon)
Also, Cameroon is beautiful

Habakkuk 1:5
 The Lord replied,
“Look around at the nations;
    look and be amazed!
For I am doing something in your own day,
    something you wouldn’t believe
    even if someone told you about it.

And so, this is the verse I hold onto as 2015 begins. Somehow I managed to find verses in obscure Habakkuk for two consecutive New Years. God is doing something we wouldn't believe, even if someone told you about it! If at the beginning of 2014 I knew I would get to see two friends get baptized (and joyfully hear about two more), friends healed of sickness, my brother (and a bunch of other friends) get engaged, and my family/church family keeping faith despite unforeseen difficulties, I would not have believed it. That makes me hopeful for 2015. I wonder what God is doing this year? I wonder what I will look back on at the end of the year and say, "Who woulda' thunk?" 
Here's some artwork my super talented sister did. Please don't use it without giving credit :)
 Thanks for reading, friends. Maybe I met you this year- for that I am thankful, too. What a year! I am hopeful for 2015.